I have learned that if you are down, stay down. Don’t get back on your fucking feet until you are prepared to stand. Don’t get up until you have learned why you fell. Nine times out of ten, it is because you were weighing down on someone who could no longer hold you. You gave someone your power. You forgot about yourself. Let me tell you something - there is one person there for you. One person. It’s the same person that wipes your shit and feeds you and cleans up your vomit after a drunken night. It’s the same person who brushes your teeth and tends to your wounds and gets your crying ass out of the shower. The same one that tucks you into bed and cradles you in the night and fights off the darkness and embraces the light. It’s you. It’s always been you. Don’t get off that fucking ground because you see somebody you know or somebody you want to know, or - somebody you can rely on. Wipe your fucking face and get up for you. Because you can. Because it’s the least of what you owe yourself.
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I didn’t choose the fandom life.
The fandom life broke into my house in the middle of the night and said “Dad’s on a hunting trip, and hasn’t been home in a few days.”
Do you ever feel like you’re not beautiful? Do you have low self-esteem? Can you think of anything or anyone that has helped you in any way?
I’m Elisha Marcum, age 17 and a junior in high school. I’m from the United States. This is my story.
I really want to try to help at least one person with the way they view their self. I’m still having trouble I won’t lie to you because it is hard. Once you are so use to looking in the mirror and thinking why I can’t be beautiful like, let’s say Ariana Grande, so you are standing there thinking “why can’t I be beautiful like Ariana Grande?” The reason you are not beautiful like Ariana Grande is because you are beautiful in your own way. You may not have red hair, long eye lashes, or be tall and skinny maybe you have short black hair and you have curves that is what makes you beautiful. A girl shouldn’t be like a board that’s just unhealthy. I think girls with curves are gorgeous. This is something I need help with as well, I look at myself in the mirror and think I seriously need to lose some weight but the truth of the matter is I only way 105 pounds. I see all these girls on TV and even girls at my school and I won’t lie I’m jealous of them they all have these good looking bodies and handsome boyfriends I don’t have that. I have a boyfriends yes and don’t get me wrong he is a cutie but that is not my point. I mean I hate my body I hate my face I hate myself. There for a long time I was lost and I really just wanted out I wanted my hurt to end. Everything changed thanks to one friend who doesn’t even know what she did for me.
My friend Shana is a Directioner. She is gorgeous and has the most amazing voice I have ever heard. I’m jealous of this girl no lie, she isn’t one of those twig, stick girls, no this girl has curves and man she knows how to work them. Shana is who started out my whole transformation. She made me a Directioner. I honestly thought I would never like One Direction. I thought they were just another little pretty boy band whose popularity came from their looks, but I was wrong. I fell in love with their music. I listened to their music constantly over and over and over all day long. They were my escape to a different world where I didn’t have to worry about what I looked like or how much I weighed. It was a place my mind took me, the only place I could just be me. I have been a Directioner for a good 4 almost 5 months (since Oct. 2012). I know that isn’t too long but I still love those five guys more than anything. I want to let you know that you can escape the pain too and no I’m not saying listen to One Direction they will change your life. If you want to do that than by all means go ahead because they are incredible but what I’m saying is find a friend or a band or someone you can listen to or watch or hang out with that can get your mind off the world.
Another way you could try is what a lot of people will tell you to do but it never really worked for me I usually just ended up in the fetal position crying my eyes out but you now that is just me it may work for you. Go stand in front of a mirror look at yourself and think “what do I not like about myself?” Once you have figured out what you can’t stand just stand up straight nice and tall be confident. Look in the mirror and tell yourself “I am beautiful, my hair is mine, my lips are mine, my eyes are mine, my body is perfect the way it is I was made this way because I am meant to be this way.” Then after you tell yourself all that tell yourself what you actually like about yourself and if there is nothing you like about yourself then you need to work on that. There needs to be at least one thing you like about yourself may it be your eyes or your kindness it doesn’t matter just something. Also, don’t think I’m trying to tell you it don’t matter what you weigh because it kind of does. You need to be healthy or you won’t be happy I can guarantee that. Just don’t starve yourself, harm yourself, or make yourself vomit back up your food. Keep healthy, eat as much as you want I know I do just make sure you know how to stay in shape and exercise. I’m also not saying that you need to exercise to lose weight because if you remember what I said early girls with girls with curves are where it is at. I am not a curving girl like I said I weigh 105 and I hate it. People judge me for being too small but I’m afraid if I gain weight everyone will judge me for being too big. I’m tired of feeling this way. I just say I’m going to be how I want to be the way that I think I look beautiful. That is my goal to just make sure I like how I look and I say “screw you” to everyone else because their opinion doesn’t matter anymore.